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Pilgrim’s Progress

(Originally published by Nattie on February 3, 2004)
I’ve never read Pilgrim’s Progress by John Bunyan. It is on my list to read this year, but when I was in elementary school my church did a version of Pilgrim’s Progress and of course I’ve read Little Women. They talk about the book in there too. So I’m familiar with the basic story line.

When I think of the book, I imagine Christian with that heavy load on his back journeying along through the Valley of Despair. Today in a small part I felt the joy he felt when he was able to drop that burden. When he realized that he wasn’t alone and he didn’t have to carry it anymore.
When I first heard the doctor diagnose Anna with a heart murmur, my heart dropped. It felt like a lead anvil dropping from the top of a skyscraper to the pit of my stomach. Gradually through prayer and trust, that anvil lightened. Every once in a while it would jiggle around to remind me that it was there. That anvil of worry and dread.
In part I just pushed it out of my mind. I decided that worry wasn’t going to add one more day to my baby’s life so that was that. In part I rested on Psalm 91. Just the reference alone gives me peace. The words are ingrained on my heart.
When we went back to the doctor last week and he heard the murmur again, the anvil made itself known again. It did not want to be ignored.
I had carried it around, often forgetting it was there. It had become part and parcel of my being. I didn’t realize how heavy it was until I heard the ultrasound technician’s magical words after she performed the echo: “This isn’t official, but I wouldn’t go home and worry.”
Suddenly I felt a lightness in my being and I felt perfect peace.
There are verses I can share. If you are familiar with your Bible you know them, but I am typing in the dark.
My children are having a pajama party with their dad. They’ve spread a large sleeping bag on the floor and now they are all snoring. I’m trying not to disturb them, but I wanted to write something no matter how inadequate it is to share that we don’t need to carry that stinkin’ anvil around. I could have gotten rid of it sooner, but God is faithful; He took care of it. He would have taken care of it even if the news had been negative. I can rest in perfect peace on that.
Good night, all. Sweet dreams.
Another Wandering Pilgrim
Copyright Natalie Rose York

2 Responses to “Pilgrim’s Progress”

  1. Anne Says:

    Beautiful! I don’t remember this one. So glad you posted it for us.

  2. Liza's Eyeview Says:

    Thanks Nat,
    I am tired today (actually this week) as I had been carrying something in my heart and mind. I know I need to trust God on this and just lay this burden at His feet. Thanks for the reminder.

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