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Blown away

(Originally published by Nattie on February 6, 2004)
My friend Jojo blogged about me. Well, she blogged about all of us, a group of moms brought together by God. I know he did because they have blessed me in so many ways—not just with friendship, but with shared wisdom, understanding and teaching. They make me yearn to grow more as a woman of God.

But her comment about me blew me away. I’m not putting this here to pat my back. I think God is trying to teach me something.
Here is what she said:

Natalie (isn’t she just the most beautiful woman ever?… I so love this picture of her. I want that shirt, by the way.)
Natalie has softened me. Anyone who’s known me for long knows that I can be quick to anger and cutting in words.
She may not know it, but Nattie has been my role model for softening my tongue and my heart over the past few years. Most of the time, i fall COMPLETELY short of my goal. But her example is always there.
She is kind and sweet, loving and encouraging. She is so very beautiful, don’t you think?

Firstly, I’m not beautiful. Okay, I had to say that. I know I’m beautiful in God’s eyes, but some days I look in the mirror and just say, “Bleech!”
Secondly, I’m the role model for softening someone’s tongue? Yikes! It is like Clay Aiken saying, “if I’m the sexy role model look out!” LOL! If Jojo only knew the things I want to say and don’t.
Recently I’ve failed so badly in this area. Some of my friends’ beliefs have been attacked and I attacked the attacker. I even cussed. Yikes! I never cuss.
I do try to temper my words. My mom is my role model. She is the perfect peacemaker. She would never have attacked someone verbally. She would have gone and fiercely hugged the one being attacked and taken care of them.
One of my goals in life is not to say or do anything that I wouldn’t feel comfortable doing in front of my grandparents. They were the most Godly people I knew.
That’s not saying I don’t say or do the wrong thing, sometimes. A lot! But if I face a crossroads and manage to hold my tongue beyond the heat of the moment, I ask, “What would Grandma or Grandmother Do?” Should I get a spiffy WWGD bracelet? LOL!
I also have a couple of verses that are life verses for me. Ones that at different times I’ve placed all around my house, car, work, etc…

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.—Ephesians 4:29
Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.—Psalm 34:13

By no means am I saying that I even come close to biting my tongue often enough. I’m honored that someone would think I was a role model for a softened tongue, but I’m still thinking surely there is someone better?! Someone who doesn’t cuss people out at times. Someone who doesn’t yell at their children? Someone who isn’t best friends with sarcasm…Somone who doesn’t have to die to self daily if not minute by minute.
I don’t know what I’m trying to say. Except I’m humbled. Thank you…and gosh darn it, there is so much I want to say, but can’t. 😉
Copyright Natalie Rose York

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