July 03, 2009
she lives
(Originally published by Nattie on February 06, 2006)
I could go into a litany of why I haven't been blogging, but I'll keep it short and sweet to save you the agony of my drama queen whining and say...
- signed FINAL divorce papers
- been sick
- still sick
- stressed
- tired
- every other adjective that describes the above four items
- decided that being the mother of a little boy with Asperger's is blank (insert own adjective or adverb here) as if I didn't know that before
BUT
there is a but...God is good all the time. All the time God is good. Sometimes things are rough and sometimes I don't feel like I know where I'm going or what I'm doing, but God does. And if I quiet myself and listen to his still small voice I'm okay. He just blesses my socks off by being God. The one stable thing in my life. He doesn't change. His character isn't different than it was 2000 or 4000 years ago. And sometimes I could kick myself for not figuring this all out sooner. I wish I hadn't tried to fill that God shaped hole with alcohol or sex or food or tv or books or movies. I wish I'd understood that God just wants me. Not perfect me. Not spiffed up polished me. Just broken little Nattie who mumbles and has low self-esteem and ALL the baggage that I was carrying around with me.
God wants you too.
Did I say this would be a simple entry? Well sometimes I just gotta say, Glory! Sometimes my soul is just shouting and dancing even when my body feels like mush. Can I get a GLORY in the house?
Copyright Natalie Rose York
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July 02, 2009
Chaff and grain
(Originally published by Nattie on January 21, 2006)
Oh, the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person; having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but to pour them all out, just as they are, chaff and grain together, knowing that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then, with a breath of kindness, blow the rest away. ~ George Eliott
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July 01, 2009
losing something we love
(Originally published by Nattie on January 20, 2006)
Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.' In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents. ~ Luke 15:8-10
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June 29, 2009
from some reading today
(Originally published by Nattie on January 20, 2006)
"A friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
"I felt it shelter to speak to you."
~ Emily Dickinson
Copyright Natalie Rose York
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Blogger's Block
(Originally published by Nattie on January 14, 2006)
I have a bit of blogger's block. I'm tired of writing drivel and whining. I have more than drivel running through my head, but I can't seem to sit down and string the thoughts together cohesively. So today I'll have you read this because Dana got it right on. And maybe I'll have it together in the near future.
Copyright Natalie Rose York
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June 27, 2009
by the way
(Originally published by Nattie on January 10, 2006)
plural for bongoes can also be bongoS.
I know.
I need to get a life.
Main Entry: 1bon·go
Pronunciation: 'bä[ng]-(")gO, 'bo[ng]-
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural bongos also bongoes
Etymology: American Spanish bongó
: one of a pair of small connected drums of different sizes and pitches played with the hands
- bon·go·ist /-"gO-ist/ noun
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June 26, 2009
How Great Is Our God
(Originally published by Nattie on January 08, 2006)
The song that brought me to my knees in worship today. No band. No guitars. No drums. No keyboardist. Our praise band had been in an accident yesterday and two of our youth are still in the hospital.
So today we had just a piano and a congregation praising God.
It's amazing how a song we've heard a million times before can become so poignant in an instant...
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June 25, 2009
is it possible?
(Originally published by Nattie on January 03, 2006)
Is it possible that the bright shiny new year is already three days old? Let me see...Sunday morning I went to church. Yes, that was January 1st. The calendar says so. So it must be true.
The children went to their dad's. I took down the Christmas tree. It was up a scant 17 days. Did you know that even fake trees drop pine needles? just sayin'.
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June 24, 2009
stacking mt. tbr for '06
(Originally published by Nattie on December 31, 2005)
This is the year when I will look in my own personal library and read all those books I've been wanting to and meaning to read. This is just a tentative framework because I realized not all my books are moved yet and I still want to add a plain ol' fiction category and a reread category. *rubs hands in glee* I can't wait to get started...
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June 23, 2009
Auld lang syne 2005
(Originally published by Nattie on December 31, 2005)
I looked it up. "Auld land syne" is Scottish for good old days or time remembered with fondness. Do I look back at 2005 fondly? I can't really say that 2005 has been a good year. If you look at it with bald- faced statistics it has been pretty crappy.
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June 22, 2009
more joys of Christmas break
(Originally published by Nattie on December 29, 2005)
* endless games of SORRY where only one person can win no matter how much you cry or scream or kick or yell or...you get the idea
* trying to explain exactly what the boy penguin and the girl penguin are doing in the "March of the Penguins" to make a baby penguin
* the carols of Pikman 2 playing in the background constantly
* calls of, "I'm hungry," five minutes after you've eaten dinner
* cuddling on the couch to watch "The Polar Express"
* reading books together
* threatening to throw the Gamecube away if I hear one more fight break out
* threatening to throw myself in front of the train if they run in the apartment again...wait, they might like that?!
* threatening to take...(insert toy here)...if they fight over it again
* hearing one of the munchkins say, "I love you, mommy."
I guess I'll make it till January 9th. Maybe.
Copyright Natalie Rose York
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June 20, 2009
free to a good home
(Originally published by Nattie on December 28, 2005)
free to a good home two highly intelligent angelic children *crosses fingers behind back* who are hardly ever prone to temper tantrums, who never fight and who always clean their room. i.e. When will Christmas break be over?!
***special note: no children where injured in the writing of this blog although their mother is taking highest dose of aleve allowed chased with diet coke
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June 19, 2009
My Theme Song for '06
(Originally published by Nattie on December 27, 2005)
Praise You In This Storm
by Casting Crowns
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen"
and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God
Who gives and takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For you are who you are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
More on the theme for 2006 this week, I'm working on organizing the detritus of having Christmas and a move happen in the same month. And my theme for 2006 has nothing to do with organization. LOL
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June 18, 2009
Merry Christmas to all
(Originally published by Nattie on December 24, 2005)
In the spirit of Christmas here is a Christmas greeting with my munchkins in a scared santa photo - op. I realized after the picture that Jonathan had peed his pants. And Anna was having a mild panic attack about talking to him at all. I told her she didn't have to talk to him today but she was going to have to talk to him Friday when he was at her school. So...
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!!!!!!!!!!
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June 17, 2009
sweet charity
(Originally published by Nattie on December 23, 2005)
I guess I've grown a smidge.
Did you know there are two basic schools of thoughts on charity?
One is "I'm too proud to accept charity and you should be too proud too."
The other is "Your hands are God's hands blessing me."
My ex told me this week that it makes him look bad because people are giving the kids gifts. I kept my mouth shut. Then he said that people are saying it makes me look bad because people are giving the kids gifts. I had to understand that one. I forgot that I was talking to someone who doesn't even try to talk to God or understand the ways of God.
After hearing that "they" (i.e. his friends) said I just lazy and trying to milk the system and feeling the pain of those words the LIGHT shown down. What was the truth?
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June 16, 2009
who am I in Christ
(Originally published by Nattie on December 21, 2005)
There are times in my life when I flounder wondering who I am in Christ. There are days when my self worth is about [] that big. Especially on days when my children rave about the other woman in my ex-husband's life, about how great she is, and about what wonderful presents she gives, and about how pretty she is. And I keep reaching for something to remind me about who I am.
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June 15, 2009
still got it
(Originally published by Nattie on December 19, 2005)
THIS is the picture I should have posted when I said I was still pretty cute for 30 something. I think I'm one hot mama for all the carp I've been through this year and I definitely need to get contacts again...
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June 11, 2009
true dat
(Originally published by Nattie on December 19, 2005)
I was and still am a brain/nerd/geek whatever you want to call it and am proud of it. Brain power!!!!
| Brainy Kid |
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June 10, 2009
an unentry
(Originally published by Nattie on December 17, 2005)
I've blogged about this before, but since all my blog entries for the past two years were lost in the "fire" (i.e. crash) of aught five I'm going to blog about it again. Heh. It's my perogative. I'm gonna do what I wanna do. Okay, that would be another blog entry...This one is favorite Christmas movies, not flashback '80s songs.
So in no particular order, my favorite Christmas movies...
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June 09, 2009
Friday Felicities 12/16
(Originally published by Nattie on December 16, 2005)
It has been a while since I've been able to do Friday Felicities actually on my blog so here goes and don't forget a Felicity is something that makes you happy...
1. My new-to-me cozy hobbit-size apartment.
2. My not-so-hobbit-size seven-foot Christmas tree.
3. The gifts under the tree given by generous people.
4. Gingerbread cookies.
5. Egg nog.
6. A wall stacked to the ceiling with books (we need not mention that it is a hobbit-sized ceiling).
7. That big beautiful snow flakes fell on my birfday.
8. That God loves me even though I'm far from perfect.
9. That he demonstrates that love to me in ways that I never imagined or dreamed even though I'm far from perfect.
10. That my children are seeing the bounty of that love.
11. That we have conversations about being born again and about who is the oldest sibling in LWW.
12. Tigger slippers
13. Flannel pjs
14. Diet Coke with Lime
15. Great big worn out Bibles.
16. Tis the season for snail mail galore and not junk mail!
| Your Christmas is Most Like: A Charlie Brown Christmas |
 Which is much more important to you than nifty presents. |
Copyright Natalie Rose York
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June 08, 2009
Things you might want to know
It was purely by coincidence that Natalie's "Happy Birthday to Me" entry came around the day before our local ACS Relay for Life. And that just one day prior to the second anniversary of her passing. Some might call it ironic. I guess i would as well. But I post them as they come around, and that's the way it rolled.
Regarding the June 5 "Happy Birthday" post and the June 7 anniversary, please read Heather's beautiful letter on her site.
If anyone else has written "a letter to Nattie" this year, please send me a link to your blog or a copy that I may post here.
Meanwhile, this year's Relay was the polar opposite of last year's.
None of the out-of-towners could make it, and it didn't rain. Scattered clouds and a light breeze kept the 80-degree temperatures and 50-percent humidity from becoming oppressive. Between laps of the track I sat comfortably in the shade while Anne knitted socks for soldiers. Several larger groups conducted raffles, bake sales, and other fund-raising events, but as most of our members live at least 100 miles away, I was satisfied with our effort.
Hundreds of participants continuously circled the track, and the crowd built as the day went on. And when the sun went down I was actually able to get some photos of the luminaria. It was one of the few times I had wished for one of my old 35mm Nikon film cameras, lately. Perhaps if I knew my digital "point-n-shoot" a little better I might have gotten better low-to-no-light pictures...but maybe you get the idea.
Thanks to all of you who contributed to the American Cancer Society this year in support of our team "Remembering Natalie Rose York." Due in large part to the Alexandria Nazarene MOMS, we collected $592.89. Thank you for remembering Nattie so generously.
((((((Y'all!))))))
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June 05, 2009
Happy birfday to me
(Originally published by Nattie on December 15, 2005)
thirty*mumblemumble* years ago I made my appearance a few days later than expected and was my cousin's sixth birthday present by a scant 15 minutes. My mom was happy that I made it on the 15th and my dad said I didn't look like anybody he knew. LOL Happy birday to me and to my cousin Joy!
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June 04, 2009
christmas tree musings
(Originally published by Nattie on December 14, 2005)
while standing precariously on a chair trying to place lights a seven-foot tree I realize that a 6 foot 2 light stringer...I mean husband, does have it's advantages.
Just sayin.
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