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December 23, 2005

sweet charity

I guess I've grown a smidge.
Did you know there are two basic schools of thoughts on charity?
One is "I'm too proud to accept charity and you should be too proud too."
The other is "Your hands are God's hands blessing me."
My ex told me this week that it makes him look bad because people are giving the kids gifts. I kept my mouth shut. Then he said that people are saying it makes me look bad because people are giving the kids gifts. I had to understand that one. I forgot that I was talking to someone who doesn't even try to talk to God or understand the ways of God.
After hearing that "they" (i.e. his friends) said I just lazy and trying to milk the system and feeling the pain of those words the LIGHT shown down. What was the truth?
1. I am terribly proud.
2. I hate to ask for help.
3. I have learned hard lessons this year that pride is not a good thing.
4. God has met our families needs in ways I could not even imagine without the help of a man who thinks it makes him look bad when he left us he stepped out as my provider. He is still responsible for his children, but he is not our provider.
5. God wants to bless his children.
6. The world won't understand God's ways and they'll call me crazy. Call me Noah. I don't care. This won't be the first time. I will walk by faith even when I cannot see because this broken road prepares your will for me.
This is just one of the many lessons I'v learned over this hard broken road of a year. I will accept sweet charity and I will hold my head high and thank the Lord for what He had given me AND for what he has taken away because that is what he requires of me.

Posted by nattie at December 23, 2005 04:22 PM

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