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November 30, 2009

What would you expect?

Natalie was moved to ICU on Sunday night, June 3, 2007, after an emergency episode with her blood pressure. On Monday morning I met her oncologist, and first impressions were not good. Until that moment, I had not heard the word "hospice" used in regard to her prognosis.

"She doesn't want to be here. She wants to go home," he said. What I heard was, "Get her out of here; she's wasting my time."

From his detached position, he could see that the end was near and providing for her comfort was not the hospital's job. They had plenty of patients who might yet respond to their ministrations. I, on the other hand, refused to see the hopelessness of the situation that stared me in the face.

Despite some other words that I had heard—"inoperable," "terminal," "chemo as a means to prolong her life..." The end, if it came, was still far away. Hundreds of people were praying, literally, all around the world. She could not die if I refused to let her go.

Within minutes she was returned to the oncology floor, and her mom was making plans for their return to Alexandria on Tuesday.

The news did appear to bring some strength. Once she was settled in her new room, Natalie dictated another entry for me to post here the next day. And when I left that evening she was sitting up in bed, eating jello and informing all within the sound of her voice that as soon as she got home she was going to call the library because the bookmobile would deliver!

Suddenly the world looked much brighter to me, too.

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November 29, 2009

Weekend Update

(Originally published on Sunday, June 03, 2007)

Natalie was transferred to ICU with an elevated heart rate early this (Sunday) morning. As she had a blood clot in her lung a couple of years ago, that was a concern. Accordingly, CT scans were ordered. Her mom also asked that they do abdominal X-rays in hopes of detremining the source of the back pain that has plagued her for almost a week.

Sorry this is rushed, but that is all that I know this morning.

Marie, and others: I cannot tell you here and now whether Nat would appreciate visitors, though my guess is probably not for at least a couple of days. The best thing I can tell you is, if you know where she is, call her room and talk to her mom. If she has stepped out of the room, please try again later. At thte very least, she will relay your message.

Thank you, everyone! Don't stop praying now!—Nattie's Daddy

Comments

Still praying for a miracle. Asking God to wrap His loving arms around Nattie and family. ((hugs))

Posted by: Aleta at June 3, 2007 06:59 PM

I'm speechless.....I'm praying.

Posted by: vickig97 at June 3, 2007 10:14 PM

Still praying for a miracle!! God's gonna do one yet! We love you Nattie girl!!

Posted by: Maria at June 3, 2007 10:35 PM

I am praying here!
{{{{{{{Nattie & family}}}}}}}

Posted by: Jane at June 3, 2007 11:55 PM

Dearest Nattie Girl, Natties Daddy and Mommy,

Praying deeply for healing. I love her courage and trust in the Lord. Beauty for ashes...joy comes in the morning...mourning for the oil of gladness...for in Him, we live and move and have our being. Sending hugs and love...

Posted by: Cynthia at June 4, 2007 01:20 AM

(((((Also praying here.)))))

Posted by: Kim W at June 4, 2007 02:30 AM

Nattie continues to be in my prayers - for healing, for God to release her from this pain, for her children to see her well and healthy. We miss her at my book group (ANovelChallenge@yahoogroups.com)

Posted by: Wendy at June 4, 2007 08:54 AM

Wah Prayer chain has been set up I've been walking and praying did that for today. I can't tell you how much I appreciate these updates because I can't access the WAH boards since this weekend. It's good to get this news. Will continue to be in prayer about these things too. (((Hugs for the whole family!)))

Posted by: Nancy S. at June 4, 2007 09:17 AM

hang in there nattie and family i love u girly

Posted by: Heather/DB at June 4, 2007 01:15 PM

Nattie's Daddy, thank-you SO MUCH for keeping us updated. I've been praying for our Nattie and the whole family - just to echo those who have already commented: believing for a miracle.

I'm used to hearing from Nattie everyday, so - having these updates from you helps keep us connected in a way. Thank-you again - words just cannot adequately express........

((((((((hugs)))))))))

Posted by: Sara at June 4, 2007 01:56 PM

Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers!
((((Nattie and Nattie's Family))))

Posted by: kim at June 4, 2007 04:17 PM

Natalie,

YOUR STRENGTH through adversity is just endless and amazing. I know that you give it to God daily and always have. I wish I could do so much for you, I wish I could take the pain away from you, I just wish I could be doing more than just prayer.
God is who will do what is to be done. Through him all things are possible. You are STRONG in heart and spirit. We love you!
Jen, Sam, Logan and Ella.

Posted by: Jen at June 4, 2007 04:26 PM

everytime i think of nattie, every morning seeing her name in my prayer book, 'great is thy faithfulness' comes singing from my heart.

god is holding you. covering you.

praying.

blessings, mari

Posted by: mari at June 6, 2007 01:12 AM


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November 27, 2009

Beauty for Ashes

(Originally published on Friday, June 01, 2007)

(Note: Although Nattie is still in the hospital in Indianapolis, she dictated the following this afternoon for her daddy to share with you.)

"While my mom was reading to me from my Bible, she came across a highlighted passage—Isaiah 61:3. There, God talks about trading pleasure for our pain, and to this truth I’ll hold.

"I have people praying for me from coast to coast and around the world. I want to thank you for being some of those people.

"No matter what happens, it's going to be OK. This is just a twinkling of the eye, a mere moment of pain...In a little while we will all see our mourning traded for 'oil of gladness.'"

Copyright Natalie Rose York

Comments

Bless you dear Nattie!! We love you!!!!!

Posted by: Maria at June 1, 2007 11:35 PM

That is my life verse. I love you NATTIE!

Posted by: Heather at June 2, 2007 08:26 AM

all my love goes to you my dear!

Posted by: Stacey at June 2, 2007 09:01 AM

GOD is very pleased with you, nattie..praying and loving you much!

Posted by: susan mc at June 2, 2007 09:11 AM

Dear Nattie's Daddy,
Thank you so much for your reports. Your daughter is one of my favorite people. I am praying for her and your whole family!
She is a fighter, and there are a lot of us going to battle with her.

Posted by: Ashley at June 2, 2007 01:01 PM

lurve that verse GOOOOOOOOO Nattie

Posted by: Heather/DB at June 2, 2007 04:12 PM

you're in my thoughts and prayers!

Posted by: alisonwonderland at June 2, 2007 04:37 PM

Is Nattie up for visitors??

Posted by: Marie at June 2, 2007 06:32 PM

Know we're thinking of you...

Posted by: sprite at June 2, 2007 07:10 PM

Praying for you daily on my prayer walks!

Posted by: Nancy at June 2, 2007 08:18 PM

Natalie,

You and your family are in my prayers. The verse "through God all things are possible" keeps running through my head.

In Christ,
Kris Roberts

Posted by: Kris Roberts at June 2, 2007 09:23 PM

Thinking and praying for you.
Amy Henry

Posted by: amy at June 3, 2007 06:53 AM

Natalie,

A friend of yours told me what you are going through and asked me to pray for you. You will be in my prayers and thoughts. God's grace and peace and love and joy be with you, sister.

love, lisa

Posted by: lisa samson at June 3, 2007 09:25 AM

Nattie, you're awesome.

Thinking of you all and continuing to send positive thoughts. x

Posted by: Quixotic at June 3, 2007 04:06 PM

(((((Sweet Nattie)))))) I love you so much, and am praying that verse over you!! There's a care package on its way from good ole North Cackalacky.... unfortunately, I wouldn't fit in the box.

LOVE YOU!

Posted by: Sara at June 4, 2007 01:59 PM


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November 25, 2009

Moving right along

(Originally published on Wednesday, May 30, 2007)

Got some time with Natalie this evening. She is to be moved from the surgery floor to the oncology wing, probably tonight, and chemotherapy could start as early as tomorrow. It is good to hear from doctors with positive plans.

She is still very weak and uncomfortable. Of course,that is to be expected just three days after major surgery, but we who are demanding miracles would like to see one soon!

Nattie wants to see her children, and they need to see her...well and strong again!

Still, she has not lost her resolve to fight with whatever strength she—with God's help and yours—can muster.

We also need to thank everyone who has been such a help to all of us lately. Some of those I can remember are cousins Allen, Jill and Joy; aunts Anne and Marty; Wes and his family, Karla and Elaine; Pastor Mark and Tammy Deimer and their entire praying congregation, and especially her mom who flew out from California the day after she got the news, and is staying as long as she is needed, even though her vacation days are long gone.

And all of you who continue to stop in here and leave your words of encouragement, and pray for Natalie's strength and miraculous healing. Don't stop now!

Thank you so very much!—Nattie and her Daddy

Comments

Thank you Natties Daddy for keeping us posted. I am keeping hundreds of prayer warriors updated on my end. Standing, believing, hoping and praying with you...

Posted by: Cynthia at May 31, 2007 01:21 AM

Nattie is also being prayed for over here - the other side of the world... but keeping you all in my prayers, as you'll need to stay strong for her and those gorgeous children.

God Bless

Posted by: Elizabeth from New Zealand at May 31, 2007 02:51 AM

Thanks for the updates, Daddy-O :-) We at the Women @ Home board are praying "without ceasing" and lifting all of you up in prayer.

Posted by: Pattie at May 31, 2007 09:29 AM

Nattie,
Praying for your strength (both physical and strength of faith) and protection as you begin chemo. I'm also praying for your mother and daddy and your children through this.

Posted by: Dee at May 31, 2007 09:42 AM

I just checked in here, and have read the last few posts. I'm sorry to read that the cancer is inoperable, but Nattie's strength is inspiring.

Thinking of you all, and sending positive thoughts for continued strength and healing (for all of you).

Kick that cancer's ass, Nattie.

Posted by: Quixotic at May 31, 2007 10:13 AM

Praying praying praying.

Posted by: Heather at May 31, 2007 10:18 AM

Please tell Natalie that I love, love, love, love, LOVE her and am praying without ceasing. I heard about the blog (it's a small town)and will check everyday. I heard a rumor that she will be coming home on Thursday, is this correct?

Posted by: Marie Morgan at May 31, 2007 11:00 AM

On Monday, the day after her surgery, we were told that Natalie would be released "in three or four days," and could do her chemo nearer to home. On Wednesday, however, her oncologist decided that she should be moved from the surgery wing to the oncology ward in the same hospital. That's all I know at this time.

Thank you all for your concern and your continued prayers.

Posted by: Nattie's Daddy at May 31, 2007 11:26 AM

got your back nattie pie

Posted by: Heather/DB at May 31, 2007 12:18 PM

THANK YOU, NATTIE's DAD, FOR KEEPING US POSTED ON HER RECOVERY!..WE, AT WAH, ARE ALL STILL HERE, AND WE ARE STILL PRAYING!!

Posted by: susan mc at May 31, 2007 12:33 PM

Marc and I are sending up prayers from NY! Stay strong . . . God is in control! Love ya lots!

Posted by: Laura Falco at May 31, 2007 12:42 PM

HEY GIRL!!! BE STRONG!!! Even though your body is weak, God is Strong and we (your prayer warriors) are strong. We will pick up where you are weak. We love you girl. If there is anything you need, anything, just let me know. Hey do you want me to get some pics from your home and help you work on some scrapbooks? I am willing and able to get your books going for you. Just say the word and it will happen. LOVE YOU.
May God bless you and your family and keep you strong!!!
Jen, Sam, Logan and Ella

Posted by: Lewis Family at May 31, 2007 01:44 PM


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November 23, 2009

Mea Culpa!

(Originally published on Monday, May 28, 2007)

Yesterday, Natalie was under the influence of drugs, and could not be reached for comment, leaving her helpless Daddy no choice but to listen to her doctors and update you accordingly...silly me!

When they returned this morning and repeated their verdict for the patient, she chased everyone out of the room for a few minutes. Then she laid down the law.

"There will be no crying in my room. I want no one's pity. I am not going to die. I will fight this thing until I beat it."

Just returned from a nice long visit. She is very tired and weak. Regardless of the outcome, she did have major surgery with appropriate painkillers. But she is already promising to shave her head rather than let the hair fall out in clumps, and find some scarves that Jonathan and Anna can't use to pick up dead animals.

This is where the real praying work begins! Thank you!—Nattie's Daddy

Comments

She's a strong lady. No doubt about it. Prayers for all.

Posted by: Jamie at May 28, 2007 11:50 PM

Nattie is in my prayers - that's all I can offer - but prayers can change the world :)

Posted by: Sally906 at May 29, 2007 06:52 AM

How I appreciate your updates! Thank you so very, very much!!!

I wish I had great words of wisdom to share, but my thoughts are limited this morning. But please know that fervent prayers for Nattie AND her family are being said.

Posted by: vickig97 at May 29, 2007 07:33 AM

Nattie...You are Amazing! Keep it up, girl!

Posted by: Debi at May 29, 2007 08:03 AM

Just know Nattie and her family is in my prayers love you Nattie you go girl

Posted by: Heather/DB at May 29, 2007 12:08 PM

Appreciate the updates.
Prayer and attitude are everything!
I will continue to keep Nattie and her family in my prayers and thoughts.

Posted by: Diane at May 29, 2007 02:46 PM

That sounds like the Nattie-Pie I know.

Posted by: Heather at May 29, 2007 04:16 PM

Thank you for the updates...KNOW, KNOW, KNOW that Nattie as well as her family & children are being loved and prayed for...and know this...

"When you doubt, I will believe. When your faith is weak, mine will be strong. When prayer is difficult, I will be on my knees. I will stand in the gap for you. I will have faith till yours is stronger, I will have faith till your doubt is gone, I will pray till you are able, just lean. I will wait with you in patience for answers that we know will come...so just lean..."

...sending hugs, love & prayers...

Posted by: Cynthia at May 29, 2007 10:27 PM

did I mention I was praying
cause I am
you can borrow mine, Nattie! :D

Posted by: Cheri at May 30, 2007 12:44 AM

I found this blog just before all this started happening, and I just want to say that I'll be checking back all the time. I know Nattie doesn't know me but she and her kids and family are in my prayers from now on.

Posted by: Camille at May 30, 2007 01:59 PM

Nattie,
I will stand in agreement with you that this thing is beat. I believe with all my faith that God has already healed us, my liver is whole, my diagnosis was bleak, so many had given up.....but God is God and I'll walk this thing out with you until your body shows God's amazing miracle in the flesh....your spiritual body is already whole, lets get this one matching it girlie!
Each morning I will start my day praising God for your complete restoration, the specific death of all cancer cells in your body and your restoration of strength.
Love you girlie!
Shanna

Posted by: Shanna Berry at May 30, 2007 02:00 PM

I'm sending prayers your way Nattie and family. I'm in awe at your ability to remain positive throughout this. You're such a strong and amazing person. Keep fighting!

Posted by: Chris at May 30, 2007 02:17 PM


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November 22, 2009

Just the facts...

(Originally published later on Sunday, May 27, 2007)

The surgeons report that Natalie's cancer is inoperable. She will be offered chemo as a means of extending her life. No cure is promised.

Please, God...that's all I've got!—Nattie's Daddy

Comments

Thank you for the update.

Continuing to pray

Posted by: Teri at May 27, 2007 04:49 PM

Sending prayers your way.
God bless.

Posted by: Mimi Lenox at May 27, 2007 05:27 PM

Prayers for Nattie & family.
We are 50 minutes away from the hospital. Let us know if we can bring you anything or do ANYTHING for you.
Jane & family

Posted by: Jane at May 27, 2007 05:41 PM

Continuing to pray, and pray, and pray

Posted by: Cheri at May 27, 2007 05:50 PM

Praying like never before.

Posted by: Cheryl at May 27, 2007 06:00 PM

Praying for Nattie & family.
Jane and family

Posted by: Jane at May 27, 2007 06:10 PM

Hugs and prayers for Natilie and her family.

Posted by: Julie in NJ at May 27, 2007 07:17 PM

Praying for you and your family. And for the doctors and others serving her...let their hands be guided and their sight sharpened.

Posted by: Jamie at May 27, 2007 07:48 PM

Dearest Natalie... you are in my thoughts and prayers. I have seen miracles and I am praying desperately... ((hugs)) and love. Aleta

Posted by: Aleta at May 27, 2007 09:01 PM

Praying for you and your family.

Posted by: Dana at May 27, 2007 09:07 PM

Nattie,
You don't know me but I'm praying for you down here in SC. God loves you!!! 'Be still, and know that I am God...' Psalm 46:10
Love, Dee

Posted by: Dee at May 27, 2007 09:18 PM

Nattie and family will continuously be in my prayers

Posted by: Lori L at May 27, 2007 09:33 PM

Nattie & Family, You are being held in prayers!

Posted by: Tina at May 27, 2007 10:04 PM

Thank you for the update. My family is praying for your family. Nattie is so special to us!

Posted by: Ashley at May 27, 2007 10:05 PM

We'll be praying.

Posted by: Jill at May 27, 2007 10:44 PM

GOD is still GOD, and i am still PRAYING..ANGELS all around you, NATTIE, your kids, and family..

Posted by: susan mc at May 27, 2007 11:03 PM

praying

Posted by: Stacey at May 27, 2007 11:22 PM

A friend posted your prayer request to our homeschool board.... An IRL friend is surviving cancer (amazing her docs) with a protacol she put together partly based on info from www.cancertutor.org They are not selling "the latest and greatest" , it is just a compilation of info from many sources - perhaps you can find additional help there. My friend had breast cancer that had metasticized into her bones - she did the chemo, and a diet/supplement program. 1 yr later - no sign of cancer. Praying for you. Blessings, Tracey

Posted by: Tracey at May 28, 2007 12:11 AM

Sending prayers your way.

Posted by: 3M at May 28, 2007 12:42 AM

Nattie, I am praying for you, your family, and your doctors.

Posted by: Allison at May 28, 2007 08:50 AM

My family is praying for you Nattie!!!

Posted by: Windy at May 28, 2007 09:21 AM

My heart breaks for you, Nattie's Daddy. Know that we who love Nattie are praying around the clock.

Posted by: Dawn at May 28, 2007 09:51 AM

Praying for all of you!

Posted by: Leann at May 28, 2007 12:41 PM

Nattie and family - you're all still very much in my thoughts and prayers. Praying for miracles in your midst and much peace.

Posted by: Janet at May 28, 2007 01:16 PM

Nattie,

I am a fellow mother and w@h. You are in my prayers. Here is a verse I cling to...verse 31 is by memory.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the Everlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40: 28-31

Posted by: Nancy at May 28, 2007 08:10 PM

I am lifting you and your family in my prayers, knowing and trusing our God HAS healed and WILL sustain you through the journey before you. God Bless you with His peace, endurance & joy.

Posted by: Heather at June 1, 2007 03:28 PM


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Waiting...

(Originally published on Sunday, May 27, 2007)

Nat went to the operating room at 8:00 o'clock this morning. The doctors met with her yesterday. They explained all of the risks to such major surgery.

The good news/bad news for today: If they are able to successfully remove all of the cancer, the surgeons anticipate that she can recover fully, without further treatment, chemo or radiation. On the other hand, it will cost her at least part, if not all of her stomach.

I promised myself that I would not make Nattie?s blog mine, so I shall cease my commentary and conjecture there.

We continue to pray that the physicians will be given extraordinary wisdom, skill and strength as they operate.

I thank you, Natalie thanks you, we all thank you!—Nattie's Daddy

Comments

Nattie, you are in my prayers daily, sweetie.

Posted by: Allison at May 27, 2007 01:53 PM

Praying for your Nattie...sending hugs, love and tons of prayers...I have sent out prayer requests to everyone I know...as my mother says "the heaven are being stormed" for her.

Posted by: Cynthia at May 27, 2007 02:50 PM

We are praying here!
{{{{{{{{Nattie & family}}}}}}}

Posted by: Jane at May 27, 2007 04:02 PM

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November 20, 2009

An Update from Nattie's Daddy

(Originally published on May 25, 2007)

Just thought you'd want to know that Natalie spent Thursday night in the local hospital for observation and hydration. Although her blood pressure was elevated at the time of her admission, it had retreated to proper levels by Friday afternoon. She had lost another six pounds in the last couple of days, so she also benefitted from intravenous fluids overnight.

This evening she is being transferred to a hospital in Indianapolis. It is hoped that they are better equipped to obtain the scans that the surgeon wants before beginning his work

Please continue to pray for my little girl's healing, and that you will soon be reading her words, here, again.

Thank you, from Natalie, her family and friends!

Comments

Dear Nattie's Daddy,

I don't know if you read nat's comments, but thank you. I wish my daddy were still around to help you deal with what it's like when your baby gets cancer. I know he was angry a lot, but I know also that just knowing he was there, worrying, and loving me, was more than any words can convey.

I hate this for your Nattie--i hate it with a pure, passionate hate that cancer is a thief and a murderer. But i know that love is stronger than anything cancer has.

I love your nattie. I know she loves you very much too, and I know that you love her enough to move the sun and stars for her. Lucky for us, all we have to do is move a bunch of rotten cells.

I'm praying so hard.

Posted by: Dana at May 25, 2007 09:45 PM

Thank you, Dana. The love and prayers that come through this site are appreciated far more than I can write.

Posted by: daddy at May 25, 2007 10:12 PM

Dear Nattie's Daddy and Nattie,

I don't that the first hand experience with cancer that Dana does. So I can't offer that help and support that she can and does. But I do know the love I have for Nat and the prayers that have been said on her behalf. I earnestly believe that she will be healed, TOTALLY and COMPLETELY HEALED, and that all of this is for God's Glory.

Posted by: Maria at May 25, 2007 10:49 PM

Nattie is a special lady . . . I see now she comes by it naturally. Prayers are being said literally all over the world for your little girl.

Posted by: vickig97 at May 26, 2007 09:49 AM

Nat and Nattie's Daddy....I know this has to be rough for you right now. But hold on to the thought that you have SO Many people out here praying for you. And prayers do help. I'm only 36, and I've survived cancer twice! When I was 4, the doctor's gave me about a 10% chance of survival. Now, I'm a mom with a husband, 3 kids, and 2 dogs. The will to live can be stronger than anything.

Please know that I am here praying daily...as is all Nattie's blogging friends. Thank you for the updates.

Posted by: Stephanie at May 26, 2007 10:49 AM

Sending lots of positive thoughts for Nattie and all of you.

Posted by: Quixotic at May 26, 2007 05:40 PM

((((((Nattie and her daddy))))))

We are so proud to have Nattie as our friend and can't wait to see the miracle that God is about to do in her life...All of her 'net friends are praying very hard and lifting ALL of her family up as well! Hang in there...Nattie's a special girl who God is about to do something VERY special in her life...

Posted by: StephanieG at May 26, 2007 06:28 PM

Time moves ever faster. As swiftly as those days passed, it seems virtually impossible that two and a half years have disappeared since. As we now know, Natalie never returned home to add her own wrds to this site, and soon the archives will be exhausted as well. Just sayin'. (((((Y'all)))))

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November 19, 2009

thankful thursday

(Originally published by Nattie on May 24, 2007)

I know people think I'm crazy. I have cancer, but I have oodles of things to be thankful for.

1. My mom is here doing all my laundry. lol

We joke that I got cancer so I wouldn't have to do housework. It is all part of my evil plan. bwahahahaha

2. I've got great friends and family. Really. I can't describe the outpouring of love and help I've gotten from them.

3. I have cute new fuzzy flip flops to wear around the house.

4. I have new pjs to wear post op.

5. I can move my laptop and sit in my comfy chair so I can be online a little longer.

6. My ipod. Last night I couldn't sleep so I listened to an audio book.

7. Even though I can't handle any "hardy" reading right now...I have oodles of "friends" (i.e. old books) that I can reread.

8. I am allowed to eat as much ice cream as I want. Never mind that I can only eat half a cup. I can eat ice cream whenever I want. The only time I was allowed to do that before was when I had my tonsils out.

9. When people come visit and ask what I want I can say, "Ice cream" and not feel guilty.

10. The most important thing of all is that God is by my side through this all. I don't know how people handle tragedy without their Heavenly Father. I know I couldn't and for this I am very thankful.

Copyright Natalie Rose York

Comments

Hooray for guilt-free ice cream!!!
(((((Nattie)))))) You amaze me. I love you.

Posted by: Sayruh at May 24, 2007 01:04 PM

You brought tears to my eyes. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Have a scoop ice cream for me, will you?

Posted by: Diane at May 24, 2007 01:40 PM

Nattie, I know you don't know me but I've been reading your blog pretty regularly for the past couple of months. I just want you to know that I am thinking of you often. You are in my prayers daily. I love your attitude. (((HUGS)))

Posted by: Allison at May 24, 2007 02:01 PM

Praying for you.

Posted by: Vasilly at May 24, 2007 06:40 PM

and we are thankful that you are here with us sharing your heart

love ya girl

(((((Nattie))))))))

Posted by: Maria at May 24, 2007 07:10 PM

Sorry to hear that you're sick. Last time I checked in, I know you were concerned, but it sounds now like there's a plan in place for some surgery? I hope it goes well and that you have a quick recovery. It's great that you're focusing on the positives in life!

Posted by: dew at May 24, 2007 07:23 PM

Know that people like me (the quiet and reserved ones) are praying for you, Nattie. I love your spirit, and God will see you through this.

Posted by: Carolyn at May 24, 2007 08:00 PM

You are amazing!
I am so proud of you!
I love you bunches!

Posted by: Ashley at May 24, 2007 10:28 PM

Ice cream for breakfast, lunch, and dinner! I'm envious! XsOs

Posted by: maggie at May 25, 2007 07:24 AM

The bright side of the things is the place I like to hang out :D *smooch*

Posted by: Angela Giles Klocke at May 25, 2007 01:16 PM

I snuck my computer on the family vay-cay just to keep tabs on you, girl. I am glad to find you in a thankful - cheerful mood. Love you!

Posted by: Heather at May 25, 2007 04:47 PM

Nattie
Miss talking about books with you at church, I got a new catalog from christian books.com and I was going I want that one and that one. Thinking of you, praying always.

Posted by: Amy at May 31, 2007 12:08 PM

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November 18, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

(Originally published by Nattie on May 23, 2007)

wordless wednesday

~Pampered~

Copyright Natalie Rose York

Comments

Oh so cute! Love love flip flops...am wearing them now actually!

Posted by: dawnae at May 23, 2007 10:45 AM

great pair of feet you got there!

Posted by: Bridget at May 23, 2007 10:57 AM

This is a great photo. Love the filter effect.

Posted by: Rayne at May 23, 2007 11:40 AM

haha! Great photo!

Posted by: Amy Grant at May 23, 2007 12:34 PM

Well deserved!

Posted by: Diane at May 23, 2007 01:47 PM

You deserve it!

Posted by: Angela Giles Klocke at May 23, 2007 05:22 PM

Are those feet supposed to look greenish or is my moniter off?

Happy WW - mines up at http://anyapples.blogspot.com/

Posted by: Frigga at May 23, 2007 06:02 PM

that is my cell phone camera, my regular camera batteries are dead.

Posted by: Nattie at May 23, 2007 06:17 PM

Cuteness! You have pretty tippie, but MINE are the prettiest, according to "The Hubby".

Thanks for sharing!

Happy WW and blessings for a nice week ahead!

Posted by: JennieBoo at May 23, 2007 07:39 PM

hey how is austen coming along?

Posted by: Nessie at May 23, 2007 10:43 PM

I have not read a bit of my austen list. I can't read much right now. It takes too much energy.

Posted by: Nattie at May 24, 2007 11:38 AM

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November 17, 2009

what i know part deux

(Originally published by Nattie on May 22, 2007)

I saw the oncologist today. He was very kind. It turns out he was my mother in laws oncologist when she had breast cancer eight years ago. I already knew that my kind of cancer is rare or uncommon as he said in a woman this young. He also seconded that the way to treat this is remove it if possible.

So I am to see a surgeon asap for a consult. There is some good news...my blood work is showing that it has not spread to my liver as of yet. More news as soon as I get some.

Thank you for all the prayers and well wishes. I know I wouldn't be so calm right now if it were not for those prayers.

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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Nattie-gurl ---- we love you!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by: Maria at May 22, 2007 08:36 PM

Calm would be an understatement. You almost make me forget that I'm supposed to be doing the worrying for both of us! I love my baby girl!

Posted by: Daddy at May 22, 2007 09:07 PM

Praying for a miracle, and so thankful for the peace you feel. I love you!

Posted by: Pattie at May 22, 2007 10:15 PM

Oh, Nattie!

Pattie sent me here to see what's going on. Can't believe it. Thanks for blogging about it so we can read and learn a little bit about the latest.

My head is spinning. I just can't believe it.

With love and concern and the sighs of prayers....

Posted by: Ann Kroeker at May 22, 2007 11:05 PM

Excellent news re: not spreading to the liver. One hurdle down; just a few more to go. ^5

Posted by: vickig97 at May 22, 2007 11:43 PM

Continuing to pray for you!

Posted by: Angela Giles Klocke at May 23, 2007 07:13 AM

(((((Nattie)))))

I'm so happy to hear that it hasn't spread to your liver...I'm still praying!!!

Posted by: StephanieG at May 23, 2007 08:39 AM

It is incredible reading through this process with you. It wasn't so long ago that you were tired and drained and now cancer. You are in my thoughts. I admire your willingness to share your life with your readers. Everything else I think of to say sounds like a lame platitude. So I wish for you strength and healing.

Posted by: Lisa Jean at May 23, 2007 09:23 AM

You sound so strong and so brave! I hope the news from the surgeon is the absolute best it can be! You'll continue to be in the thoughts and prayers of so many!

Posted by: Debi at May 23, 2007 09:53 AM

((Natalie Rose)) Praying and praying and praying

Posted by: Dawn at May 23, 2007 10:03 AM

Not spreading is GREAT news. I bought you a book today. Will ship as soon as I can.

Posted by: Heather at May 23, 2007 04:24 PM

Praying that you will beat this.

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November 16, 2009

what i know

(Originally published by Nattie on May 21, 2007)

I don't know a whole lot more yet about my cancer. But it is cancer. And it is not lymphoma like previously mentioned. It has a name. And I won't put it up here because you'll google it and get all the horrible statistics.

I've never liked statistics. I've never been a conformist (apparently this cancer is more common in non-american black men over the age of 65). I've always walked to the beat of my own drum. And I will continue to do that now. I know who holds tomorrow. And He holds me in His hand.

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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Oh, Nattie-girl, I am so sorry. (Dana shared your news with me on an email list we are on together) I am heart broken for you, but as you said, we know Who holds tomorrow, and He DOES hold our hand every step of the way. I am so praying for you and if I can do ANYTHING for you, please don't hesitate to let me know, ok?
I love you!!!!!!!
{{{{hugs}}}}

Posted by: Ellen at May 21, 2007 06:09 PM

I said almost the exact same thing to Dana, this afternoon. I said that usually older men and people of other races and from other countries get this cancer, but our Nattie alwasy had to be different. ;) I love you girlie.

Posted by: Heather at May 21, 2007 06:10 PM

Nattie, we love you and are all praying for you. God is still working miracles today and I believe He can do it for you.

Posted by: Holly at May 21, 2007 06:15 PM

Praying for you Nattie. I love you so much.

Posted by: Misty at May 21, 2007 06:38 PM

Oh my sweet sweet Nattie...

Posted by: Angela Giles Klocke at May 21, 2007 06:46 PM

I love you sweetie pie, and I am praying. The One Who holds tomorrow is holding your hand, and I'm going to be the girl bugging her Daddy for a miracle.

Posted by: Pattie at May 21, 2007 06:46 PM

Much prayers to you.

Posted by: maricar at May 21, 2007 07:13 PM

I just love you so much my sweet! I am lifting you before the throne of the Father today and in the days to come. You know we are all in this with you for the long haul. (((((NATTIE)))))

I left you some song lyrics at my blog... You are filling my heart and thoughts!

Posted by: Leann at May 21, 2007 07:22 PM

You are in my heart and prayers, dear Nattie. Keep your spunk and stay right there in the Father's keeping. No one can keep you better then He can.

I love you,
Blue

Posted by: Blue at May 21, 2007 08:01 PM

Nattie~I am keeping you in my prayers.

Posted by: DawnM at May 21, 2007 08:41 PM

I love you Nattie Pie!!! -- Your out look is absolutely amazing!!

Praying dear heart Praying........

Posted by: Maria at May 21, 2007 10:04 PM

Nattie! I'm so sorry to hear your news. You are in my prayers and thoughts. Know that I'm right here in the next town if you need anything at all. I'd be happy to come over any time.

Posted by: Angieo at May 21, 2007 10:11 PM

((((Nattie)))) praying hard.

Posted by: stephanie at May 21, 2007 10:44 PM

I'm catching up on blogs (alphabetically) and saw your need for prayer on Leann's blog...not even stopping to comment on hers, I came here. Nat, you have my very earnest prayers.

Posted by: Jamie at May 22, 2007 12:55 AM

I don't know you but read about you on another blog.

Boy, you sure are loved!

I'm praying for you.

Posted by: Linda at May 22, 2007 01:18 AM

You are indestructable until God is finished with you, and I do NOT believe He is finished with you.

Posted by: vickig97 at May 22, 2007 04:26 AM

Sweet-Tart Nattie! I am so sorry about your news, and I am keeping you close in my thoughts and prayers.

Posted by: Janet at May 22, 2007 08:01 AM

(((((Nattie)))))

I truly believe that God can and WILL deliver you through this fire and we will all have a refined faith through this...it is a battle that we are not going to let you fight alone. We have the King of kings on our side and the greatest Commander of any army. We will all stand on the front lines and fight this battle with you. We love you!!

Posted by: StephanieG at May 22, 2007 09:02 AM

i love you know that k? praying so hard

Posted by: Heather/DB at May 22, 2007 09:33 AM

You will be in my thoughts and prayers, Nattie!

Posted by: Lori L at May 22, 2007 01:56 PM

Nattie - Keeping you lifted up in prayer (((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))

Posted by: nita at May 23, 2007 01:45 AM

Here's what I know - God already did a medical miracle in you once, and I have every reason to believe that He will do it again. Love you so very much.

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November 14, 2009

May reading

(Originally published by Nattie on May 19, 2007)

My list is pitifully small right now, but I haven't felt like reading much lately and what I am reading is rather light fare.

1. Spring Cleaning Murders by Dorothy Cannell
2. For Everything a Season by Philip Gulley
3. The Hanging in the Hotel by Simon Brett
4. Coming Home by Rosamunde Pilcher (reread)
5. Rainbow Valley by L.M. Montgomery (reread)

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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November 13, 2009

the telling

(Originally published by Nattie on May 18, 2007)

There is little that is harder than calling your mom who lives 2,000 some miles away and saying, "The doctor thinks it looks like lymphoma." Even harder is calling your dad who is only 20 miles away and can't drive and say the same thing.

The list of calls you have to make seems a mile long and you have to pray for strength even if you are only leaving a message on an answering machine. The telling is not the easiest thing.

Copyright Natalie Rose York

Note: Natalie later admitted that she really hadn't heard, and had to ask Wes' grandmother, what the doctor had said. She wasn't sure, either, but thought it was something that ended with "-oma." Lymphoma, carcinoma, whatever...within three weeks it would make no difference. (((Y'all)))—ND

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November 12, 2009

Hindsight may be 20/20...

On the date that yesterday's post was originally written—May 16, 2007—I was still trying to deal with the month-old news that a former co-worker and protegé had died a year earlier of lymphoma and multiple sclerosis. I well remembered the day he presented himself at my office door, fresh from college, overflowing with raw talent and enthusiasm.

I thoroughly enjoyed the next couple years, watching him grow in the job as I fed him what little I had learned about the business, but I could not stand in the way of progress. Before long he had moved on to bigger and better positions. Still, I enjoyed the delusion that I had made some significant contribution to the launch of his career.

I could go on about how I came to hire him, and the heights he subsequently reached, but this isn't about him. Nor me. Nor the 1980s. It's about an irony that strikes me whenever I remember the days of Natalie's blogging. Since learning on April 17, 2007, of Steve's passing I had wondered why and how a 44-year-old with a wife, two sons and hundreds of friends around the world, could be so unfairly stricken. But "now" it is Thursday, May 17, 2007...

If hindsight is 20/20, foresight must be total darkness.

Perhaps it is better that way.

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November 11, 2009

tired of being poked and prodded

(Originally published by Nattie on May 16, 2007)

I've had blood work done. I've had a gall bladder ultrasound. I've had an Upper GI done. Now I have an endoscopy scheduled tomorrow at some horridly early hour. They must fix this soon because I am at my limit.

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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November 10, 2009

so over it

(Originally published by Nattie on May 14, 2007)

I am so over being sick.

I've not eaten real food in eons.

I've lost a good 15 lbs (which I needed but would have preferred to do the "normal" way).

I can't exercise because I have no energy so my muskles (ala popeye) have gotten flabby.

Housework, while always a drudge, is near impossible to do when you have problems standing for two minutes at a time.

I am too tired to read even.

I just watch reality tv reruns.

And that ain't good for ye ol' brain.

I am so over being sick.

Hopefully they figger out what is wrong soon.

I have to chaperone a field trip in a week's time.

I have a vacation to California coming up, too.

Must. get. better.

If only we knew what was wrong?!

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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November 09, 2009

bummer

(Originally published by Nattie on May 10, 2007)

I just blogged a fairly decent blog and lost it. I'll try again later when I have more energy.

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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November 07, 2009

Guilty Pleasures

(Originally published by Nattie on May 05, 2007)

There are things I enjoy that I am almost ashamed of. They are things that might not hold with the outward image I like to project. Then I remember that outward image is just that...outward. Who I am is an inward and outward being. There is more to me than the jeans I wear and the things I own.

Yet there are still some things I only do under the cover of darkness, things I don't shout about on the rooftops. I'm going to whisper them to you right now. Full disclosure.

Now that you know all these private things about me will you still respect me? Probably not. But that is okay. You have your guilty pleasures, too.

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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November 06, 2009

For Everything a Season

(Originally published by Nattie on May 05, 2007)

I. love. Philip. Gulley. When I can manage to read this past week, I've been enjoying his book For Everything a Season—Simple Musings on Living Well. It is a collection of vignettes based on the verses in Ecclesiastes—"For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven."

I love his droll sense of humor. Gloria Gaither calls him "part Mark Twain, part Garrison Keillor." I agree. Those are two other authors I love with a passion that is holy.

Just to give you a taste of his writing if you've never read him, here is a quote from the chapter "A Time to Hate."

...ever since then I've been trying to find a way to hate certain people and walk close to Jesus, but without success. If you've found a way to do that, let me know. There are several people I would love to hate if I thought I could get away with it.

His non-fiction essays are simply lovely and his Harmony series is a hoot. Anyone who has been a pastor or a pastor's wife should enjoy his witty insight on being a pastor.

I've not read his other non-fiction works (If Grace Is True and If God Is Love) because I don't hold with all his theology. That doesn't mean that his other works aren't fantastic! He lives here in Indiana. I'd love to meet him and pick his brain sometime.

Mr. Gulley, can I sit on your stone porch some time and talk about black maple trees?

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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November 05, 2009

Life goes on

Yes, I have missed a few days. No, I didn't go anywhere. I have been staring at the dwindling list of archived entries that remain. And wondering what I can do to halt the march toward its inevitable conclusion.

As of May 4, 2007—the date of Nattie's previous post—a mere two weeks remained before we all got the terrifying diagnosis. And no one guessed that we had but three weeks after that to share her earthly presence.

The detailed reminders of those days remain to be published. And the events they describe painfully remembered.

It is often said, "if only we had known." But if we had, what could we have done? What could we have done differently? What words were left unsaid?

And why can't we just make it stop?

It is too much to comprehend. Too much to consider. And life goes on.

Thank you for caring.

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November 03, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

wordless wednesday

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