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December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas!

snow deck

...to all of you from Natalie's family. Thank you for all you have done to welcome us into your hearts. Just as you did for our Nattie.

May all your kindness be returned a hundredfold. God bless!

'til we meet again...{{{{{Y'all!}}}}}

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December 17, 2009

Is that all there is?

(Originally published on Thursday, June 21, 2007)

Thank you (have I said that before?) for continuing to visit NattieRoseWrites.com. I had no intention, I can assure you, of becoming a blogger when—less than a month ago—I posted my first update in my daughter's stead.

Many of you have thanked me for continuing to post. Surely you have noticed that I lack a certain quality that made this site so popular and its author so well loved. I ain't Nattie...OK? (Insert smile, here.)

Sometimes, we parents tend to think of our children as extensions of ourselves. Although we know better, we expect them to adopt our friends, adapt our logic, to assess their situations and make their decisions in the same ways we would. This, however, is rarely, if ever, the case.

Our offspring are the products of their genes and environments, not ours. My Natalie did not get her sweet optimistic spirit from me.

But Natalie isn't blogging anymore. And, now, the updating is done. Although we will continue to grieve indefinitely, we have said our goodbyes. her "Hobbit House" is empty, her accounts closed, her books donated to her church and her library.

Jonathan and Anna miss their Mom, to be sure, but they now live with their dad and look forward to their birthdays in July.

All we have left are memories, a few photographs...and her written words. All I have left to say is a polar opposite to what you have come to expect to read, here.

I know that Nat is having the time of her life, but all I want to talk about is how unhappy I am. I feel sorry for myself—to say nothing of her mom, her kids, her extended family and all her friends—because the world just isn't the same without her.

Because many people still visit daily, I don't intend to remove this blog anytime soon. Fortunately, I am a minority investor in the box that serves the site, and the domain is registered for a few more years.

But I also know that those readers will soon fade away if new material is not added frequently, so I had an idea...

Thanks to Heather, Joanne and Cynthia from W@H, and the internet "Wayback Machine," I have the posts published on the original "Nattie Writes," dating back to mid-2003.

I also have some things she wrote in the years before blogging became such an important part of her life and yours.

If you would like me to periodically post this material—some of it previously published, and some of it not—let me know. Otherwise, I cannot imagine that you would be interested in anything more that I could add.

Thanks for caring! (((((Y'all!)))))

(December 17, 2009—Well, here we are again... Second verse, same as the first... Is anyone interested in a repeat performance?

I wish I had something new to offer. More than that, I wish Nattie were here, writing her own words of insight. I'm batting zero for two.

Though only a fraction of what the traffic once was, a significant number of unique visitors still stops by this site daily. Who are you? Are you looking for something new or another serving of the original? Or is it time to lay her words to rest, as well?

Who is interested in supporting "Team Nattie" at next year's Grant County Relay for Life? What about her church's Rose Reading Garden? I am reluctant to ask for gifts at this time of economic uncertainty, when all of you have friends and family of your own who demand your attention. If anyone is interested, I can re-post that information. Shall we continue? Let me know. Please. And thank you!

Meanwhile, may this Christmas season be most merry for you and yours.)

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December 15, 2009

Happy 36th birthday, Natalie

Happy Birthday

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December 14, 2009

A Card from a Lifelong Friend

(Originally published on Monday, June 18, 2007)

I owe a debt of gratitude to each of you for your good wishes and wonderful comments in Nattie's memory. I also received the following by "snail mail," and now pass it along to you, her friends worldwide. (Thanks to Joy; credit to Hallmark)—Nattie's Daddy

A rose may lose its bloom,
But still the fragrance lingers long.
A bird may fly away,
yet we can still recall its song.

So when someone who is loved departs
to join the Lord above,
They'll live and laugh and be with us
in memories of love.

"Your days of mourning will come to an end."—Isaiah 60:20 (MLT)

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((hugs)) glad to see you posting.

Posted by: Jamie at June 18, 2007 03:06 PM

She will never be forgotten, that is true. Thank you so much for updating and letting us know everything that has been going on. I told the girls that you all have been amazing and wonderful for thinking of us, when you don't have to. ((hugs)) and prayers continue.

Posted by: Stacey at June 18, 2007 04:07 PM

You have no idea what it means to me (us) that you, Nattie's Daddy, continued to keep us posted. Thank you so very much.

Posted by: Dawn at June 18, 2007 05:35 PM

This heavenly blue butterfly
will fly high in the sky,
higher and higher.
The sunlight will touch the blue
on its wings until it seems to disappear.
We think it is gone,
because the blue of the butterfly
is the exact same blue of the sky.
We think it is gone,
because our eyes are too weak to see—
and it is difficult to believe what we cannot see.
But the blue butterfly is not gone.
It is still flying, higher and higher,
nearer the sun. Blue against blue.
For now and forever.

- Marjolein Bastin

Posted by: Heather at June 18, 2007 07:09 PM

((((((Nattie's Daddy))))))))
Thank-you so much for posting this. It's comforting to see Nattie's blog being updated.

Posted by: Sara at June 19, 2007 07:29 PM

Oh my goodness, how did I not know this beautiful soul?? I have been a member of PBS for quite some time and have been reading all of Nattie's entries and all about her....she and I would have been very good friends, my loss:( My heartfelt thoughts and prayers go out to all those that loved and cared for this wonderful person. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Pam

Posted by: Pam at June 19, 2007 08:12 PM

I really just came upon this blog by chance, but I think there was no mistake there. The beautiful words here from both the deceased and loved ones have encouraged me in my own fight against a disease. I realise that it is so important to be thankful for everything we have in life and have the faith that God will heal. Thank you for making this available for me to "accidentally" find. My condolences to your entire family and all friends.

Posted by: Emily at June 20, 2007 01:41 PM

Though I cannot take your pain from you, I can share it.

Posted by: Joy at June 20, 2007 05:31 PM

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December 11, 2009

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust...

(Originally published on Friday, June 15, 2007)

The sky was clear, the sun was bright and the grass was dusty. A small group of Carters, Wootens and Yorks gathered this morning to say our ceremonial goodbyes to Nattie's earthly remains. Her grandmother Julia read the following words:

We know this small urn holds no "ordinary" ashes, darling. They're all we have left of your beautiful life, and we've come to place them where we knew you'd want them most of all—near your beloved Grandma and Grandpa Wooten.
And, no, that isn't all we have left—we have beautiful memories of your valiant spirit, your wonderful testimony of faith and trust in God, and your radiant triumph over all the pain life brought you.

The word "beautiful" has been used with purpose—that is how we will always remember you—our beautiful little girl...our Natalie Rose.

Rest in peace, darling; we'll see you "in the morning."

Then we took some pictures, exchanged a few more words and tearful hugs, and went our separate ways. Angel and Karla are helping Mary clean out the "hobbit house" apartment.

Four weeks ago today, Natalie phoned to tell me she was sick. What happened?—Nattie's Daddy

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HUGS TO YOU ALL

Posted by: Heather/DB at June 15, 2007 03:56 PM

(((Nattie's Daddy)))

Posted by: Cheri at June 15, 2007 04:10 PM

This whole episode has been so surreal. I can't imagine what it would be like from a parent's perspective. Again, I will be praying for you, Aunt Mary and the rest of the family. We will never understand this side of heaven, but God's plans are perfect. I know we will see Natalie again.

Posted by: cousin mark at June 15, 2007 04:11 PM

It's the hardest thing - to try to reconstruct your life without Nattie Rose. We try to go on - to pick up where we left off - to live. Yet the best we can do sometimes is just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Blessings on you all. Like Cousin Mark says, we'll meet again!

Posted by: Joy at June 15, 2007 04:32 PM

My heart goes out to you all and my prayers are said for you all. ((hugs)) I wish I could do something to take the pain away, but I know I can't. I will think of and pray for you all often.

Posted by: Stacey at June 15, 2007 04:39 PM

Much love and hugs as you move forward. Know that you are being prayed for daily!!!

Posted by: Leann at June 15, 2007 06:40 PM

*shakes head* It just feels so wrong. It's all happened so fast. My heart and my prayers and my tears are with you.

Posted by: Jojo at June 15, 2007 06:49 PM

I wish I had the right words or that I could make it all better for you, Mary and all who soo deeply love her...but as another has said, sometimes the best we can do is put one foot in front of the other...please KNOW, you are loved and prayed for often...

Posted by: Cynthia at June 15, 2007 07:23 PM

(((((GEOFF)))))

Posted by: Heather at June 15, 2007 08:29 PM

I reinterate what others have said -- PLEASE know you are loved and prayed for often. As hard as it is for us to think about rebuilding without Nattie, we know is is so much harder for you.

Posted by: Maria at June 15, 2007 08:45 PM

Everyone who's posted before me have said it much better than I can. I truly think one day God will make it all clear, but for now, I shake my head in disbelief. You are being remembered in many prayers by people who live literally around the world.

Posted by: vickig97 at June 15, 2007 08:54 PM

I am so glad you were able to lay her to rest today, in a manner befitting a princess. I will miss her until heaven.

Posted by: Pattie at June 15, 2007 10:53 PM

Geoff, thank you for allowing us to share in your celebrations and your grief. You are a wonderful man, and a special family, and I thank God that Nattie had you for 33 years.

Please don't hesitate to ask for anything.

God bless!

Posted by: Valerie at June 16, 2007 12:02 PM

Prayed a prayer for you to have a happy father's day! Thinking of you. Thanks for the posts that you have shared.

Posted by: Nancy S. at June 17, 2007 01:56 AM

Nattie's daddy...Thank you for continueing to post things on Nattie's site. I think she would be proud that you have continued to do this in her honor. I think its awesome!! I will miss her sweet spirit that I saw every Sunday she was in church.

Dee

Posted by: Dee Hurst at June 17, 2007 07:40 AM

Nattie's Daddy, I'm so glad you're posting here. You're being remembered often in many, many prayers.

Posted by: Vicki G. at June 17, 2007 06:24 PM

I know Nattie would want it said, "Happy Father's Day." And she'd *really* want the happy for you.

Posted by: Jamie at June 17, 2007 06:58 PM

I was just thinking of you on this Father's Day. I can't imagine what it feels like, but I know it is not good. So, I am sending a cyber hug your way.

Posted by: Heather at June 17, 2007 10:09 PM

We're praying for you, Uncle Geoff! You are loved! Michelle

Posted by: michelle at June 17, 2007 11:06 PM

Happy Father's Day.. my prayers and thoughts are with you on this day, and everyday to come. y

Posted by: Erik at June 18, 2007 02:30 AM

Natalie was such an encourager for us women at Curves. Who knew all that she was going through? SHE preached the most uplifting funeral service I have ever heard. Thank you, Nattie. I won't forget your positive spirit, God's Girl!

Thank you, family, for the book donation to the Alex library, which she frequented on a nearly daily basis. Her love of reading is "legendary"-parents, you no doubt instilled that in her.

In her brief time with us she touched SO MANY lives in wonderful ways. We are privileged to have known her.

Sending my warmest thoughts & prayers to all her family and friends.

Susan

Posted by: susan at June 18, 2007 08:30 AM

We just got back into town, so my Happy Father's Day for you is a day short.. Sending you hugs, love, prayers, and a world full of WAH love to you. You are woven into our hearts. Love, Cathie Jo

Posted by: Cathie Jo at June 18, 2007 02:41 PM

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December 10, 2009

Letters from Mommy's journal

(Originally published on Thursday, June 14, 2007)

(Written the day before her surgery; Natalie passed on a week and a half later.)

Dear Jonathan,

You are my first-born, my precious baby boy. You have gotten so big I can't believe you are almost as tall as me or that you'll be 9 this July.

I want you to know that I love you. I know I haven't always been the best mommy but know this much—no matter what—I will always love you.

You are such an amazing little guy. Never stop dreaming, imagining or being creative. I know that if you want to you can be a great artist someday. You already are an artist.

Believe in yourself. I do.

Again, I love you. Never forget that.

Mommy
5/26/07

Dear Anna,

My sweet baby girl—being your mom has been a joy.

I am only sorry that I've been sick so much of your life. I'm sorry that we haven't cuddled more, that you haven't read more to me. You are such a smart little girl. Yes, I called you a little girl because even though you are almost 7—you are my baby girl.

You are going to do just fine—in school and in life.

Never forget that mommy loves you, and so does God.

Butterfly kisses and hugs,
Mommy
5/26/07

Copyright Natalie Rose York

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Words cannot express how much emotion is within me when reading these entries. She's an amazing woman and truly a wonderful mother. Thank you for posting them.

Posted by: Erik at June 14, 2007 05:18 PM

I will continue to pray for Jonathan and Anna Nattie. You were a good mother. Many times I have thought that I was a horrible mother but my children are grown now and they tell me I was a good mom...even though I was a little crazy sometimes. We will miss you!!

kisses and hugs,

Dee

Posted by: Dee Hurst at June 17, 2007 07:35 AM

Oh my god, I've got tears running down my face.

The kids are in my thoughts...

You're doing a great job keeping her memory alive.

Posted by: Michelle at August 4, 2007 04:14 PM

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December 09, 2009

Happy? Birthday

(Originally published on Wednesday, June 13, 2007)

I just had to mention—if for no other reason than to try to get a little bit of this selfish grief for my loss of Natalie's earthly presence off my back—I also have to suffer another birthday, today. (No flowers, please!)

I think I shall, henceforth, swear off Father's Days, entirely; wish I could do the same with the annual reminder of my advancing years. And, Anne, if you tell any of these young ladies how many, you know what's going to happen on November 12!

Meanwhile, my amazement over Nattie's outreach continues to grow. As the subject hadn't come up in several months, I had neglected the server logs for this site. I finally ran them last night, and to use a Nattie-ism, "It blew my socks off!" On June 7, 1,027 people visited NattieRoseWrites.com. I am sorry she can't tell you how much she appreciated each one of you...so I will try.

Thank you very much!—Nattie's Daddy

PS: Angie, Cheryl, Cynthia, Heather, Joanne and Valerie—You and your companions are part of Nattie's W@H family, and we were more than grateful to have you represent the rest of your sisters.

Mark—We all appreciate the effort you put forth—along with cousins David (North Carolina) and Laurie (also members of John's family from Florida and Texas)—to attend. Your musical contributions, as well as your dad's, couldn't have been more appropriate. I do hope we have a happier reason to meet the next time.

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(((hugs)))

Posted by: Stacey at June 13, 2007 03:13 PM

Oh, I'm so sorry... Know that we are all thinking of you and praying for you today and this coming weekend.

And we promise not to speculate on the number on your driver's license. :)

Posted by: Jojo at June 13, 2007 03:39 PM

Happy Birthday Natties daddy. Praying for you all. Cathie Jo (one of the 11 Wah girls)

Posted by: Cathie Jo at June 13, 2007 04:40 PM

Happy Birthday. I'm praying for your family.

Posted by: N. Vasillis at June 13, 2007 05:43 PM

Well, if Nattie were here, she would tell us how old you are so we could all snicker at you. ;) Happy Birthday!

Posted by: Heather at June 13, 2007 06:07 PM

Happy Birthday, Uncle!

Posted by: cousin mark at June 13, 2007 06:31 PM

Happy Birthday Daddy!! And know that Nattie has whooping it up in heaven for you today and for you this weekend! She hasn't forgotten her daddy...

Posted by: StephanieG at June 13, 2007 07:24 PM

Well, on November 12, by most standards I'll qualify for senior citizens' discounts, and you will always be my older brother. But that's all I'll tell. :-)

I hope the well wishes brought at least a smidgen of pleasure to your day.

Love ya'

Posted by: Anne at June 13, 2007 08:03 PM

Happy Birthday, Nattie's Daddy. I miss your girl a lot. I'm happy my friends were there to tell you how much we loved her.

Posted by: Pattie at June 13, 2007 08:36 PM

Happy Birthday --

I will be thinking of you and praying for you at this time each year -- I know what it is like to have your own birthday remind you so painfully of a dear one you have lost. I was born on my favorite Grandmother's birthday and now since her death 3 years ago, May 15 still has an empty to it.

Posted by: Maria at June 13, 2007 09:25 PM

I have been praying for you today. I will pray for you on Sunday as well.

Posted by: Dawn at June 13, 2007 09:46 PM

I wish for you, this particular birthday, many moments bathed in the sweetness and comfort of the Savior. Each birthday brings you that much closer to that glorious reunion with your precious Natalie Rose.

Posted by: vickig97 at June 13, 2007 09:50 PM

well I will say happy birthday anyway, because I for one am glad you are here to be this connection for those of us in the far reaches of the world (or at least the continental US).
I know this one is a hard one, but hopefully, even though the missing won't be less, the enjoying will come easier.
God bless you!

Posted by: Dana at June 13, 2007 09:59 PM

I 2nd what Dana said, and that goes for those of us over here in England too!

Posted by: zoe at June 14, 2007 09:30 AM

Happy Birthday, Nattie's daddy :) I'm glad you are continuing to post - and thank you for sharing that AMAZING number of visitors to Nattie's blog on June 7th. She touched a lot of hearts, that Nattie of yours - and I think she'd be smiling that you are continuing to blog her blog. *hugs* to you on what I know must be a bittersweet day.

Posted by: Wendy at June 14, 2007 10:05 AM

Happy Birthday Nattie's Daddy...if I were there I'd give you a big ole birthday hug and a thank you for being a loving daddy to your Nattie.

(((((HUGS)))))

Posted by: Cynthia at June 14, 2007 10:54 PM

*iii*Happy Birthday*iii* Nattie's Daddy!

Just seeing this site updated on my bloglines makes me happy!

I know this weekend will be hard, know that I am continuing to hold you all up in my prayers.

Posted by: Cheri at June 15, 2007 10:02 AM

Happy Birhtday Natties DADDY! we are praying for you and your family

Posted by: Pat at June 15, 2007 10:51 AM

I also know that empty feeling -- having been born on my Daddy's birthday. With him gone now, there's that Daddy-shaped hole in the birthday remembrances.

Posted by: Joy at June 15, 2007 04:25 PM

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December 07, 2009

In Memoriam

(Originally published on Monday, June 11, 2007)

Natalie's memorial service is over. It truly was uniquely a blogger's send-off.

Her former pastor Brent spoke almost entirely in Nattie's own words from this site. Her cousin Mark from Colorado Springs played the piano and sang the last song she posted here. Blogging buddies Heather and Joanne read a passage they had resurrected overnight from the crashed "Nattie Writes" on the Internet Archive. Another cousin, Laurie from Auberry, California, read several comments posted June 7 in response to the question on the W@H site—"What do you love about our Nattie Rose?" All brought laughs and tears in similar amounts.

Thank you to Nat's Internet friends Valerie (Missouri), Joanne (Washington), Angie (Indiana), Cynthia (Illinois), Cheryl (Missouri), and Heather (Mississippi), who traveled to help us celebrate her life. We also appreciate the rest of you who joined us and our Natalie Rose, in spirit.

On a related note, the funeral director told me that the only person to get more guestbook entries on the Home's website was Bill Gaither's dad. Rock on, Nat!

I still do not intend to make this my blog, but I do have a few more things that I want to post in the not too distant future, so check back at your leisure.

Thank you for your prayers and good wishes.—Nattie's Daddy

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I am truly in awe over all that was shared and how many people Nat touched. I do not pretend to even try to fathom God's plan in all of this, however, I do think that one small part of this plan was to show us how many people we touch over the course of our lives no matter how long or short they may be. We do appreciate the effort that you have put into keeping us up to date and sharing your heart here with us.

Posted by: Maria at June 11, 2007 09:21 PM

So glad you continue to write, truly. I have Nattie's blog on my Bloglines, and I just don't have the heart to delete it. My heart jumps whenever I see there's been a new post. I won't complain if you take it over. :)

Posted by: Lisa Gray at June 11, 2007 10:03 PM

I want you to know that W@H has been, and God willing will continue to be, a wonderful group of women who have supported and loved each other in a deep friendship. Many of those who attended Nattie's memorial service were calling and posting those of us who could find no way to be there in person. I would not have thought it possible, but Nattie managed, even in returning Home to her heavenly Father, to bring us closer than we were before. That's so Nattie.

And I concur with Lisa...I'm not ready to say goodbye to Nattie's blog, to her words, to her impressions upon people. I welcome your posts, and thank you for connecting the ladies and other bloggers in sharing with us her prayer needs, your prayer needs, the update on the memorial service, etc. As long is it remains a source of celebrating her life and of peace for you, I will remain a loyal reader.

Peace be with you,
Jamie

Posted by: Jamie at June 11, 2007 11:14 PM

Thank you for letting us who are far away share in remembering our dear Nattie. Though I only knew her through W@H I am grieving her physical absence from us, yet still rejoicing she's with her Lord. Please keep us updated how you and the family are doing. I'll continue reading as long as you desire to keep writing.
I agree with Jamie that through her death W@H is closer than ever, if that's possible. Whenever I see someone being encouraged or prayed for I think of Nattie and her influence on our lives.
I miss you Nattie!!!11

Posted by: Jen at June 12, 2007 09:30 AM

My Thoughts and Prayers are with you and your family!

Posted by: Kelly at June 12, 2007 09:44 AM

...we were sooo excited when we found her crashed journal entries and amazed that they gave the words to share at the memorial service.

I too, will keep checking here for updates.

Thank you sooo much for your gracious welcome of our presence during such a difficult & emotional time in your lives, it was an honor for us to be there, representing every single lovely WAH lady.

In Him!
Sending Hugs & Love...
Cynthia

Posted by: Cynthia at June 12, 2007 10:52 AM

Thank you so much Nattie's Daddy for keeping us "posted" and we welcome your future posts as I join the ranks of those who just can't seem to bring herself to hit unsubscribe on bloglines...I miss her terribly and hitting that button, well, it just seems to FINAL. She was an amazing woman and I have no doubt that was thanks to having an amazing mommy and daddy. I look forward to your posts and thank you for including those of us who could not attend the memorial service. We were DEFINITELY there in Spirit.

Posted by: StephanieG at June 12, 2007 12:34 PM

The only reason Nat didn't beat Bill's dad is b/c some people still don't know. ;)

Thank you for letting us be a part of Nattie's send off. Thank you for treating us like family this weekend. It was an honor I will never forget.

Posted by: Heather at June 12, 2007 02:09 PM

Dear Natalie's Daddy,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

May you be bathed in the warmth and comfort of Jesus' love on this, YOUR day. Nattie wasn't a special lady by accident; she was the product of parents who loved her dearly and taught her well.

Posted by: vickig97 at June 13, 2007 08:16 AM

I, too, have appreciated your updates and thoughts, and still check in on Nattie's blog each day. We miss her, and the things you are sharing about her are solace to us all.

Posted by: Robin at June 13, 2007 11:36 AM

Dear Uncle,

It was great to see you after sooooo many years. I am truly sorry for the circumstances in which we met again. I was honored to be able to help out in a small way to celebrate the beautiful life of a beautiful woman. I would encourage you to write as Nattie's daddy.

I found a letter that mom wrote about her father. She wrote it in March of 1992 a month after he died. In that letter she mentioned how grandpa loved each of his grand-children. She mentioned that grandpa loved receiving letters from Natalie. It was nice to see that her writing skill was appreciated at a younger age. She touched a lot of lives. More lives than we will ever know.

Posted by: cousin mark at June 13, 2007 12:09 PM

I am glad I had the opportunity to meet you at Natalie's memorial this weekend. I can't even express how much we appreciate how you welcomed us with open arms. My anniversary is today, and when I heard it was also your birthday, it made today even more special for me, as now I will always have a connection of today with my beloved Natalie.

Posted by: Cheryl at June 13, 2007 02:10 PM

Prayers continue to go up for God's comfort for you and your family!

Posted by: Nancy S. at June 13, 2007 02:41 PM

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December 04, 2009

A few necessary details...

(Originally published by Nattie on Friday, June 08, 2007 )

A brief obituary and memorial arrangements are now posted. You may sign the guestbook there, and/or leave comments here.

As always, we thank you, sincerely, for all your thoughts, prayers, and expressions of concern.

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Dear Friends and Family of Natalie Rose,

I wish mere words could make you feel the comfort I long to give to you. Nattie is a woman greatly loved by many; she made an indelible mark upon the lives and hearts of people literally around the world. What a blessing to have known her even for a short time.

Posted by: vickig97 at June 8, 2007 06:27 PM

Thank you for keeping us updated. It was good to meet you today.

Posted by: Heather at June 10, 2007 03:24 PM

i'm so, so sorry. thank you for including those of us who only knew Nattie from the blogosphere in your sorrow. may the Lord comfort you and give you peace!

Posted by: alisonwonderland at June 10, 2007 08:37 PM

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December 03, 2009

Natalie Rose "Nattie" York

(Originally published on Thursday, June 07, 2007)

A precious gift from God,
delivered on
December 15, 1973;
returned to Heaven
June 7, 2007.

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Oh, I'm so sorry to read this news.

Nattie's family, please know your daughter will remain in our thoughts and that we wish you only good memories to sustain you through the hard days to come.

Posted by: sprite at June 7, 2007 11:37 AM

What a beautiful picture.

I am so very sad and my prayers are with her family. She is a precious friend.

Posted by: Pattie at June 7, 2007 12:06 PM

I praise our Lord that Nattie is in the presence of Jesus and in no more pain. I am pleading the Lord for His peace that passes all understanding for you, her Mommy and her Daddy and her little children.

Posted by: Dawn at June 7, 2007 12:06 PM

She will always be loved and missed. Such a terrible loss. My best wishes to her loving family.

Posted by: Tiff at June 7, 2007 12:10 PM

I'm seriously so sad about this. Much prayers to your family. Nattie, please say "Hello" to my mother for me. You both have so much in common. Rich in love and strength with a body that couldn't support it.

Posted by: maricar at June 7, 2007 12:11 PM

May her memory be eternal.
Praying for your family.

Posted by: Linda M at June 7, 2007 12:11 PM

I have tears. My deepest sympathy.

Posted by: Lisa Jean at June 7, 2007 12:21 PM

I'm so sorry to hear this. She was far too young to die. I'll be thinking about Nattie's family, including her precious children who she loved so dearly.

Posted by: kookiejar at June 7, 2007 12:34 PM

I love you, Nattie! I can't wait to see you in Heaven.

Posted by: Dana at June 7, 2007 12:42 PM

Natalie will truly be missed.
Natalie's family you are still in my thoughts.
Amy

Posted by: Amy at June 7, 2007 12:54 PM

Oh, my, she was beautiful. You are wonderful to share these precious moments with us. My deepest sympathy to you all.

Posted by: Debi at June 7, 2007 12:54 PM

Oh Nattie...Le Sniff

My prayers are with yall. Thank you for the gift of Nattie, may her spirit and spunk live on in Jonathan and Anna.

Posted by: cheri at June 7, 2007 01:01 PM

My heart rejoices for Nattie . . . oh! to wake up in the presence of the very One she loved so dearly!!! But my heart aches for her family and friends who love Nattie so dearly. (Love, not loved...the love continues, even though Nattie has moved to her Heavenly home.)

I'm thinking of the book, "90 Minutes in Heaven." To know that Nattie is at this very moment experiencing everything written about in that book . . . A-Ma-Zing!!!

Posted by: vickig97 at June 7, 2007 01:20 PM

I'm so sorry to hear this. Nattie will be missed. Many prayers are being sent out to her fammily.

Posted by: Stephanie at June 7, 2007 01:24 PM

I am sooo soooo sad...my heart is breaking for our loss, for you her parents, for her CHILDRENS loss.

I KNOW that being face to face with the LORD of LORD and KING of KINGS, she NO LONGER needs the faith that we sooo desparately need right now, for she SEES Him who has LOVED her and for His own reasons, beyond ours, has called her home.

I PRAY for her precious children and that God will, who is ABLE and WILLING, redeem and reap glorious treasure and blessing from this for Himself and them.

To Him who is able to do abundantly ABOVE ALL that we could ask or think...we rest in You oh Lord and trust, knowing that You are in control of ALL that we dont understand and cant wrap our human brains and hearts around. We stand firmly before the throne, in all our emotions, loving and trusting You.

Posted by: Cynthia at June 7, 2007 01:27 PM

I left the other comment before I saw this. I am so sorry...my prayers will continue for your sweet family.

Love,
Blue

Posted by: Blue at June 7, 2007 01:27 PM

My deepest sympathy to all of you. I am so very thankful that I knew Nattie, even if it was just online. *hugs* You are all in my prayers.

Posted by: Monika at June 7, 2007 01:35 PM

I love you, Nattie...

To Nattie's family -- know that many, many loved and adored her. We will miss her.

Posted by: Angela Giles Klocke at June 7, 2007 01:38 PM

Words can't express my sadness at losing the fight to the cancer.
Words can't express my joy for her gain at standing before the Lord whole and healed.
Prayers for all of you...cheers of praise for Nattie beating us all there. She can help show us around up there one day. You know she will be grand at that.

Posted by: Kathie at June 7, 2007 01:42 PM

She touched my life in so many wonderful ways.

My prayers are covering your family!

Posted by: Ashley T at June 7, 2007 01:48 PM

I am so blessed to have Nattie as my friend. I will miss you forever, babe. Looking forward to that day when I will see you again.

Posted by: Cheryl at June 7, 2007 01:57 PM

My thoughts and prayers are being lifted for all of Natalie's family and I am awaiting the great reunion someday soon... Her profound spirit touched so many of us and I am thankful to have known her here on earth!!!

Posted by: Leann at June 7, 2007 02:09 PM

Oh how my heart aches for the loved ones left to go on without her here on this earth. I will pray for each of you. I rejoice for Nattie's release from pain. {{{Hugs}}}

Posted by: Tina at June 7, 2007 02:11 PM

Thanks to Natalie for all the fun talks we had while doing nursery duty at church. Had you only been able to go on the mission trip with me to New Orleans last year, so I would have gotten to know you better. As I observed your sweet spirit at church, you truly were a woman of God. I am honored to have known you. You will always remain in my mind and in my heart.

Posted by: Dee at June 7, 2007 02:57 PM

My heart aches for each of you who have lost such a wonderful and dear friend. I pray for Peace and Comfort to wrap it's arms around you and carry you through this time. May the Lord of all life bless each of you this day with the Hope that comes from knowing Him.

Because He lives .... B.

Posted by: Betty at June 7, 2007 03:29 PM

Nattie, I'm so glad that you're not suffering or in pain anymore. I love you so so much - and cannot WAIT until we get to dance around the throne together.

To Nattie's family: my heart is absolutely broken for you all. I just cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. I'm praying for Anna & Jonathan, and for you ALL to be held in perfect comfort and peace as you mourn the passing of your sweet Nattie.

Much love,

Posted by: Sara at June 7, 2007 03:52 PM

I am so so sorry for you tremendous loss. I know Nattie is in the presence of our Saviour, which brings comfort. But I know it's still so hard & this will be so difficult for her children & parents. I will continue to pray for you all.

Posted by: Jane at June 7, 2007 04:01 PM

To Nattie's Family, I am so sorry for the pain that your hearts must endure.
To Nattie..Run free without pain, and know that those left behind will be alright. After all, they have a wonderful guardian angel now.

Posted by: kim at June 7, 2007 04:06 PM

Words are empty, but as I told Nattie, words are all I have to offer. Nattie was the most beautiful spirit. I spent the last 5 years or so watching as she healed and grew and was recreated. She has always been pure joy in my life, and her memory will always bring me joy.

Posted by: Heather at June 7, 2007 04:30 PM

I'm so stunned. Nattie Pie, I love you, sweetie. Rest in the arms of Jesus, honey.

Posted by: Amy Jo at June 7, 2007 04:51 PM

Peace has come over Natalie's body and her pain is no more. She is in Heaven with God eternally and always watching us from above.
She got her ocean now and forever. I pray for all of you, her family and for Jonathan and Anna. May God wrap you in His love and understanding. If you need anything, please let us know. The church family is ready and willing to do anything and everything. Natalie was always ready to jump in and help and she so loved the Lord, it showed in all she did and said. I am truly blessed to know her and I will carry her courage and love in my heart always.

Posted by: Jen Lewis at June 7, 2007 05:05 PM

My dear cousin, I will miss you. I will miss not getting to know you better. You are definitely in a better place with your Lord and Saviour. May God pour comfort on the family. I will continue to pray for your children, Aunt Mary, Wes and Uncle Geoff.

Posted by: cousin mark at June 7, 2007 05:12 PM

I sit here not knowing really anything to say. I'm not crying for Nattie, but for those of us who grieve for her...especially her children whom I know had no rival in her love. To Nattie's parents, I can only say how strong a testimony was she to the love and direction you provided her. I'm very glad to have known Nattie, although only via cyberspace. She supported me in prayers often, and I can only hope that my prayers supported her.

Posted by: Jamie at June 7, 2007 05:14 PM

I love you Nattie-pie and will miss you FIERCELY!!! To Nattie's family, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Posted by: Crissy at June 7, 2007 05:29 PM

I'm praying for your family that the Lord will wrap His arms around you at this time.

Posted by: 3M at June 7, 2007 05:30 PM

We're praying for you all, what a loss for all of us.

Posted by: Shanna at June 7, 2007 06:21 PM

Im sorry ab your loss. I didnt know Nattie, but I am praying for your family.

Posted by: Rachel at June 7, 2007 07:00 PM

To Nattie's family: My heart goes out to you all. May God pour His love and comfort over you as you cope without your dear, sweet Nattie. She will be missed.

Posted by: Kim (Coffee and a Muffin) at June 7, 2007 07:00 PM

Dear Nattie,
I miss you, sweet-tart. I can't imagine the loss or grief your family feels right now but please know we are praying for your children and your parents.

In my mind's eye, I see you sitting next to your overflowing bookcases in your cute little apartment. You sure knew how to fill up on reading material. I miss your saucy little retorts and witty one-liners and the perfect mixture of sweet and tart that made you who you were.

I'll never forget you.

Posted by: Janet at June 7, 2007 07:09 PM

I am sorry for your loss. I first met Nattie in a yahoo writing group a number of years ago and that's how I found the W.A.H. group. I was very inspired by her writing and impressed with her willingness to share her faith. Nattie greatly impacted my life!

Posted by: Nancy S. at June 7, 2007 07:21 PM

I am so shocked to read this this morning and so, so sorry. My heart goes out to Nattie's family and her friends. May they know the peace which passes understanding.

Posted by: Anne at June 7, 2007 07:38 PM

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and my prayers and thoughts are with your family. Nattie will be missed and I'll be completing the Newbery Challenge that she started in memory of her. What a kind soul she was. One of a kind.

Posted by: Chris at June 7, 2007 07:46 PM

im so sorry know im praying 4 all of you
i am a part of WAH too

Posted by: Heather/DB at June 7, 2007 09:26 PM

saddened by our loss, rejoicing in her HEALING and her JOY at being with JESUS..

please know in the days ahead, her family will be in our prayers, and NATTIE will be in our hearts forever..see you there, NATTIE girl!

Posted by: susan mc at June 7, 2007 09:40 PM

Words cannot begin to express how sorry I am for the loss of Nattie. I only knew her online and she amazed and inspired me. You all continue to be in my prayers. ((hugs))

Posted by: Aleta at June 7, 2007 09:42 PM

I can't believe it.

I don't know what to say. I'm stunned.

Posted by: Ann at June 7, 2007 09:57 PM

To Nattie's family and friends: Nattie was indeed special and touched my heart - not an easy thing to do across the miles of cyberspace, and yet she did; which speaks to her heart and the kindness she poured out and her light, which was so bright. I have no doubt that Nattie is with God. Please know I am praying for strength for you to deal with her loss. And know, she made a difference and will be missed. Nattie we love you!

Posted by: Wendy at June 7, 2007 11:10 PM

No words seem adequate right now...We continue to pray fervently for you all!

Posted by: Michelle at June 7, 2007 11:59 PM

may peace wiht with nattie as she stands in the arms of her precious jesus. she's whole. . . no longer in pain and no longer siffering.

she was an amazing woman.

Posted by: mari at June 8, 2007 01:04 AM

I'm sitting here in tears stunned - I so thought Nattie would pull through... I prayed and believed for her healing here on earth, not up in heaven.

My heart, prayers and thoughts go out to Jonathan and Anna, and also to her parents who have sat by her side through it all and kept us updated, and the remainder of her family and friends.

God bless
Elizabeth
New Zealand

Posted by: Elizabeth at June 8, 2007 01:26 AM

I am so sorry to read this news. My thoughts are with you all.

Posted by: Quixotic at June 8, 2007 05:52 AM

I am so sorry for your loss. I just started reading her post's today and I feel like I've known her forever.. My thoughts and prayers are with her whole family.

Angela

Posted by: Angela at June 8, 2007 06:50 AM

I was just getting to know her in our "Something About Me" Reading Challenge, where I posted the sad news:
http://somethingaboutmechallenge.blogspot.com/2007/06/death-in-our-group.html

The whole family will be in our prayers. Thanks, "Daddy," for posting her dictated thoughts this week.

Posted by: Bonnie Jacobs at June 8, 2007 06:55 AM

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I didn't know Nattie personally but enjoyed her blog and her writing. I also know how it feels to be relieved that the person you love is no longer suffering but to be missing them here on earth.
My prayers are with you all.

Posted by: Tiffany at June 8, 2007 07:37 AM

I will miss you Nattie

Posted by: Maria at June 8, 2007 07:40 AM

I am deeply saddened by your loss. Sympathy, thoughts, hopes, and prayers for all of you.

Posted by: Laura at June 8, 2007 07:59 AM

Nattie touched so many people in so many ways. My thoughts and prayers are with her family and friends at this sad time. We'll miss her gentle kindness.

Posted by: Robin at June 8, 2007 08:51 AM

I am so very sorry for your loss. Y'all are in my thoughts and prayers.

Posted by: Tammy at June 8, 2007 09:49 AM

I love you Nattie. I will miss your royal highness until I can see you again.

Posted by: Misty at June 8, 2007 10:09 AM

I too am a blogger "friend" and only recently really got to "know" Nattie when she joined my reading challenge and chose 5 books that said something about her...

I've been following this horrifying turn of events and not commenting because it's a strange situation to find oneself in -- having a "friend" that you feel so much for, but have never met.

Now I'll just say to her family - thanks for keeping us updated here and my heart and prayers go out to you in this sad, sad time.

Thank goodness we all believe that Nattie is safe in Heaven this morning. What a lovely comfort and I hope it helps you get through this.

Posted by: Lisa at June 8, 2007 11:53 AM

I will miss you Nattie. So much.

Posted by: Becky at June 8, 2007 12:53 PM

I've known Nattie online for probably 5 years or so. She was part of our Christian Journaling group (before WAH, book challenges and the like!). I was shocked to hear the news. Saddened for those left behind who knew her beautiful spirit. Saddened for her children and her family. But heaven is richer for our loss. Nattie Rose, we love you!

Susan

Posted by: Susan at June 8, 2007 01:48 PM

My heart is broken this morning as I sit here, reading this, tears streaming. I will miss you, Nattie-girl. Many prayers going up for all of you in grieving the loss of your beautiful girl/mom.

Posted by: Ellen at June 9, 2007 11:59 AM

We will dearly miss you Natalie. You were a true friend and we will never forget you. Our Sunday School class will not be the same without you. We know by your faith, you are standing before our Lord rejoicing. He has healed you, amen for that. Our prayers and thoughts are with your parents and children. May God be with all of them.

Until we meet again, The Harting's

Posted by: Jude and Terri at June 10, 2007 06:20 PM

Bless you all! You will stay in the thoughts and prayers of so many of us out here.

Posted by: Debi at June 11, 2007 08:53 AM

"Til we meet... til we meet... til we meet at Jesus' feet... God be with you til we meet again."

Posted by: Ellen at June 14, 2007 10:38 PM

I only knew Nattie briefly when I would read her inspiring blog on Xanga, but I knew she was a gentle spirit with a great love for her family and friends. This world lost a beautiful woman, but heaven gained an angel. My condolences to her family and friends.

Posted by: Nancy at June 16, 2007 07:23 PM

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December 02, 2009

A change in plans

For some reason that was never clear to me, Natalie did not go home on Tuesday. Then I got a call from her mom at 1:42 on Wednesday afternoon. I was still convinced that Nattie would be cured or healed, or at least be with us long enough to get hospice care at home, but Mary's words at least partially penetrated my fog; her organs are shutting down. I needed to get to Indianapolis.

I called a couple clients with jobs hanging over my head and begged for a little more time—how much I did not know. Ran a piece of Express Mail to the Post Office, then checked to see if my sister could take me to Indianapolis. At 2:55 I called Mary to tell her Roger, Anne and I were on our way.

Still I believed that this episode, as with the one on Sunday night, would pass. Soon Natalie would be sitting up in her own bed, eating Jello and reading books that had been delivered by the library.

I stopped in her room. She said, "Hi." But Wes was there, too. Why? As far as I knew, he hadn't visited before. Mary told me that he wanted to talk to Natalie in private, so I went down to the visitors' lounge to make a pot of coffee. I barely recognized Wes' mother; she was crying and saying, "I'm so sorry, Geoff." I still hadn't grasped what was happening.

Jonathan and Anna had been in the lounge, drawing pictures and writing messages to their mom. Wes brought them in; Jonathan handed his card to Natalie then turned and looked out the seventh floor window. Anna wouldn't look at all.

Karla stopped back to say they were going to take the kids to get something to eat. "Don't worry, Natalie," she said. "We'll take good care of your kids." I still refused to comprehend.

A nurse appeared. "My kids are gone, now," Natalie told her, and the nurse administered another dose of pain killer and tranquilizer. Before she fell asleep I said, "I've told everybody else, but I don't know if I ever told you how proud i am of you."

She whispered, "Thank you."

"I love you."

"Love you, too."

By the time my friend Boyd called at 7:06, reality had begun to sink in. (Ironically, he would fall ill scarcely six months later and pass away in February of the next year.) Natalie was clinging to life only as long as her heart held out; virtually everything else had given up on her. All the tubes and wires had been disconnected and the monitors removed. Only the oxygen feed remained.

As the night wore on, her pastor arrived. Then other family members and friends. I got up, from time to time, to walk the halls or visit briefly, but mostly sat at Natalie's bedside and held her hand. At some point that I failed to record and can no longer recall, it seemed that her sleep had become a coma. Her breath became more labored. She no longer made any other sounds or changed her position in the bed.

At 6:41 a.m. just as daylight was coming to the rest of Indianapolis, she drew her last breath.

The hospital chaplain came and offered a comforting prayer. We stood around and spoke quietly. Eventually we gathered her belongings and left her body in the room. It had failed her. She had gone and left it behind. Those of us who remained on Earth will miss her until we meet again.

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December 01, 2009

The Touch of a Hand

(Originally published on Tuesday, June 05, 2007)

(Dictated June 4, 2007, to Daddy)

Through this illness I have realized the importance of the gentle touch, whether it is rubbing hair away from forehead, or even the prick of a needle.

Yesterday I realized even more the value of the touch of a familiar hand.

My blood pressure dropped to zero. All I could see around me was white, and all I could smell were clinical smells. If not for the touch of my mother's hand, tethering me to reality, I don't know if I would be alive today.

As I gripped her hand fiercely, I also recognized how much her hands felt like her mom's. I'm sure I squeezed life from those little hands, but they were so precious to me—that link between Mother, Daughter and Granddaughter.

Those hands returned my squeeze, while their lips softly sang old Gaither tunes.

Never underestimate the power of a gentle touch.